Long overdue ...

Hi all!

I apologise for not updating more often.  I have struggled recently with some mental health issues, and was focussing on getting that side of my life (ie my brain) back on the rails.

Now that I'm feeling much better (hooray!), I am going to be working hard to bring you all new reviews as soon as humanly possible.  Reading around the clock - it's a hard life! :)

In the meantime, I would like to point Australian readers in the direction of an absolutely fantastic new find of mine - a magazine called Sneaky.  It's truly of our time - their topic tagline is "Sex, music, film, fashion, life, art and activism".  You can probably guess which area interests me most.  Plus they swear openly and have a regular column by a sex worker.  Their 11th issue was the Sex and Death issue.  Huzzah for sex-positivism!

Check them out here:  http://www.sneakymag.com/

(No, I haven't been paid for this.  I just really love them and don't want to see them go the way of so many indie, niche magazines - ie down the toilet.)

Watch this space for more book reviews very soon!

- DFBS, aka Alex Lowe

The long-awaited ... Chapter Two!!

Pretty self-explanatory ... Enjoy!

Please comment to let me know what you think!  I genuinely welcome critique.

Chapter One is here.

Chapter Two is here.

 

 

Belle de Jour: Diary of an Unlikely Call Girl, by Anonymous

Note: Yes, this is the same book as The Intimate Adventures of a London Call Girl, by Belle de Jour.  No, I have no idea why they changed it.

Description from Amazon.com:  

Belle couldn't find a job after University. Her impressive degree was not paying her rent or buying her food. But after a fantastic threesome with a very rich couple who gave her a ton of money, Belle realized that she could earn more than anyone she knew--by becoming a call girl. The rest is history. Belle became a 20-something London working girl--and had the audacity to write about it--anonymously. The shockingly candid and explicit diary she put on the Internet became a London sensation. She shares her entire journey inside the world of high-priced escorts, including fascinating and explicit insights about her job and her clients, her various boyfriends, and a taboo lifestyle that has to be read to be believed. The witty observations, shocking revelations, and hilarious scenarios deliver like the very best fiction and make for a titillating reading experience unlike any other.


Amazon lists this title as being available in hardback, paperback and Kindle format.  I read it on my Kindle (although I also own the original in paperback ... somewhere). 

- How kinky?
Sometimes, incidentally.  She writes very frankly about sex, very matter-of-fact about specific acts.  Many are vanilla, but there are kinks in here, such as watersports, consensual violence, and however you define trying to see how many fingers you can fit up your own ass while getting fucked. 

- How sexy?
Very.  Belle writes very engagingly, occasionally poetically.  The storyline is easy to follow and most of the characters, despite being unnamed, are three-dimensional in most of the ways that matter.  Little tidbits of people's lives, their foibles and personalities are titillating, and leave you wanting more. 

- How informative/inspiring?
For me, very.  Many of the passages have inspired fantasies in the past, and particular acts/scenes have been known to be highlighted by me for future reference.  

- How engaging?
I think so.  It is a work of non-fiction, but like so many biographies and diaries, reads as fascinatingly and fluidly as a well-written novel.  This is about the fourth or fifth time I have read it, so that tells you something.  

- How well executed?
Oh yes.  As indicated in the title, it is entirely in diary format, although with interesting asides, lists and notes sprinkled throughout to break the format up.  Belle is an excellent writer, and during those exciting years when her real identity was still a mystery, it was speculated she was actually a professional author, and/or one who read literature and liberal arts at uni.  (This has since been proven spectacularly false.) 

- Overall reaction
I love it.  It is easy to read, easy to understand, easy to get through.  A lovely little piece of brain candy, as I call it, for the mentally unchallenged.  The author's intellect and erudition shine through the text, reading as a sympathetic and intelligent friend, confidante, and sexual idol.  I love it, always have.

Five cocks!!

Buy this book if:

• You'd like some light, but explicit, journal-style reading - perhaps for a plane journey, a lazy Sunday, or just some guilt-free brain candy.
• You enjoy the writing of an eloquent, educated, very sex-positive writer, who doesn't shy away from uncomfortable and sometimes bizarre topics.
• You appreciate and are interested in the lifestyle of a real-life prostitute in 1990's London, and not the glamourous, fluffed-up version you see in Hollywood films, and equally not the down-and-out, heroin-addicted version so often portrayed by the very same people.
• If you liked Subtext: A Modern Day Tale of Female Submission, by Kate Marley, you will love this!

 

A little bit of fiction ...

So I have tried my hand at writing some of my own pornographic fiction.  Comment to let me know what you think! 

Chapter 2 is currently being polished ... will update when finished ... 

Chapter One is here.

 

Discipline: Adding Rules & Discipline To Your BDSM Relationship, by Lily Lloyd

NOTE:  Unfortunately the title itself seems to be unavailable through Amazon.  There are reviews all over the net, but where can one purchase this book?  I'm not sure.  I would like to offer any readers who ask, a copy of this book on PDF.  I will not take payment for this.  If the publishers would like to contact me regarding this, please do so, as I have tried to contact them regarding purchase information without success.   Please use the comment section below.

Description from Amazon.com:  

Have you been trying BDSM in the bedroom, but you're curious about spreading the connection and passion you've found there to the rest of your life?

Does the word "strict" turn you on? Intrigued by a discipline dynamic?

Or did you start out with a lot of rules and good intentions only to find that it didn't work out?

There are lots of books about how to tie a knot or swing a flogger -- but Discipline is about building a kinky relationship that works.

Discipline: Adding Rules & Discipline To Your BDSM Relationship will show you how to build rules together that are hot, sexy, and enhance your relationship. 

Amazon no longer appears to list this title.  The author's blog, http://theblackleatherbelt.com, also appears to be missing.  Does anyone have any info on this mystery?

Description can be found at Goodreads.com.

- How kinky?
Well, it's about power exchange within BDSM relationships.  So there's an assumed amount of kink there.  The book itself is mostly about rules and discipline (surprise, surprise), so I suppose it depends on what you define as kinky.

- How sexy?
This one isn't, because it's more or less a self-help book. That in no way diminishes its brilliance.

- How informative?
Very.  This is where we really get going.  This book is AMAZING.  I have been in the lifestyle for over ten years and I learned a lot from this book.  Not that I'm the most knowledgable player on the block - I might be somewhere in the middle? - but this book has so much to teach those of us who have a tendency to think, Maybe I know this stuff already.  Nope!  And even if you do, it never hurts to refresh the basic lessons - humility, dignity, self-improvement.

- How engaging?
Very.  I read parts of it while at work, and hated to have to put it down again!  The quality of the info and the standard of the writing really make you want to know what topics are going to be covered next, and what the author has to say about them.  Even her phrasing made me think of things in a new light - I highlighted quite a few passages in this book for later review.

- How well executed?
Brilliant.  As I mentioned, the quality of this book is really high.  The author is clearly very intelligent, and knows her stuff - even if just through her own experiences.  The University of Life is more important than any degree, and this author shows us that experience, and mistakes, are some of the best teachers for this lifestyle.
 
- Overall reaction
Fantastic.  I have added it to the Key Kit, as I believe it is a seminal text in its niche.  If you have any interest in discipline as a lifestyle, from any perspective, read this.  It's wonderful.

Five cocks!

 

Ask me for this book if:

• You are attempting to add a D/s dynamic to a burgeoning relationship, or if you think yourself/your Dom or sub needs to brush up on the basics.
• You feel you might be in need of some study material in the field of discipline, submission or even just how to live in a relationship with rules.

Contact me to obtain this book on PDF or ePUB: 

dirtyfilthybookslut at gmail dot com 

(no payment will be accepted)

 

The Control Book, by Peter Masters

Description from Amazon.com:

The Control Book is about the fine art of taking control of your partner. It's about the processes involved, about taking control, using control, about ensuring that you have control, and - importantly - about giving control back once you are done with it. The book discusses how this works - the psychology of it - and looks at what can go right, and at what can go wrong and how to fix it. It considers the role of authority in the equation, and looks at how to manage the control you have over someone so that it is both effective and rewarding for you both. I believe that a very large part of the activities which we include under the umbrella of BDSM rely explicitly or implicitly on control being asserted over one person by another. My goal in this book is to talk about control, explain what it is, demonstrate it, show how to take it, how to give it, how to manage it, and more. I want you, the reader, to be aware of the ebb and flow of control around you and through you.

Amazon lists this title as being available in paperback and Kindle format.  I read it on my Kindle. 

- How kinky?
Not particularly. Many do consider and define the psychological aspects of BDSM to be kinky, but you aren't going to find anything in here about any kink except the titular.

- How sexy?
Not.  Quite dry and academic.  Exactly what can be expected from such a volume.

- How informative?
Very.  The introduction does say that it's not a book for beginners, but it sure reads that way at times.  A lot of the info was very basic.  That said, it does have a lot of info that may not be commonly known to even some experienced players, so there is an argument that it is for Controllers of all levels.  Subs may not get much out of it, except to suggest it to their Doms.  Or perhaps Masters, rather than Doms, as it is very much M/s based as opposed to D/s.

- How engaging?
Fairly.  The first chapter (which I will go into later) is slightly ... off-topic, shall we say.  After that, the book is quite engaging, and I read it quickly and hungrily to the end.

- How well executed?
Fairly.  Again, the first chapter was unnecessary and ill-advised.  The remainder of the book is well-considered, relatively thorough (relative to some other texts I've read on the topic), and I think it will be helpful to any who choose to follow it.

- Overall reaction
Sorry, the first chapter really put me off.  A lot of theorising and posturing about Jungian psychology and neuroscience.  Unnecessary, as I said, and ultimately bad form.  If you skip the first chapter the rest is worth an extra point, but since it is included, I had to downgrade my rating.  Read this book if you have an interest in exactly how to take control of a sub/slave, how that is achieved, and how to maintain the power exchange.  It's exactly the scope of the book, and it does deliver, if you pay attention.

Three cocks from me.

Toybag Guide to Playing With Taboo, by Mollena Williams

Description from Amazon.com:

For those turned on to giving or receiving power, the hottest fantasies are often those that are the least acceptable -- those that mirror historical oppression (Nazism, plantation slavery), crime (incest, ageplay, rape), and other "unacceptable" behaviors. Because these fantasies are deeply charged, they are among the riskiest and most challenging to enact. Yet it is possible, and often very rewarding, to do so. In this guide, Mollena Williams, a Black woman who enjoys roleplaying racism and slavery with the right person, explains ways to safeguard these difficult scenes to ensure the emotional and physical safety of all concerned. With sections on playing with sexual taboos like age and rape, cultural taboos like race and identity, and physical taboos like scat play, this is a thorough and responsible guide to BDSM's furthest regions.

Amazon lists this title as being available in paperback and Kindle format.  I read it on my Kindle. 

- How kinky?
Very. This is, unsurprisingly given the name, a short guide to playing with the furthest reaches of psychological kink. Many players would call this stuff true edgeplay, as it is truly playing out at the edge of SSC, and firmly within the realm of RACK.

- How sexy?
For me, very, as I have interests in this area. But it is fairly dry so it's mainly my imagination doing the sexualising :)

- How informative?
Somewhat. I expected there to be a lot more information on how to negotiate such scenes, but it turned out mainly to be a guide to what some of the taboo play consists of. Perhaps it comes down to expectations - after all, this is a Toybag Guide, so it's a fairly small and slim volume, as they all are. I suppose I would recommend this short book mainly to those who need an introduction to taboo play, rather than a comprehensive guide or how-to. It really is mostly an explanation of what each listed taboo might entail, and short passages on how to make sure your intentions and those of your partner are sound - vital stuff, but quite broad.

- How engaging?
Not much. As I mentioned, it was fairly dry stuff - That said, it's very short, so it doesn't need to be particularly engaging - I finished it in half an hour.

- How well executed?
Very!  The information that is given is important, to the point, and eloquent.  The vocabulary is wide, but the editing was a slight letdown (words like "you" where it should be "your" just irritate me, so sue me). 

- Overall reaction
I liked it, but was hoping for more information. As an experienced player, I pretty much knew all this stuff. Toybag Guides' claim to popularity is thus:   "... quick reference guides you can drop in your toybag ... Each of these books contains at least as much information as you could get from a full day's workshop on the topic taught by one of the leaders in the scene."  Well, I can say that this particular guide would not be worth dropping in my toybag.  I'd be more likely to read it, make sure my partner reads it, and then stick it on the shelf to wait until someone asks me if I have any info on taboo play.  YMMV.

Three cocks.

Female Submission: The Journals of Madelaine, by Claudia Varrin

Description from Amazon.com:

Female Submission: The Journals of Madelaine is the true story of Claudia Varrin's time spent in London as a sexual female submissive to a well-known British master. Unlike Erotic Surrender, the first book of this two-book set, which was written to empower the female submissive and make her feel pride in her sexual preferences, this book relates her actual day-to-day experiences while living with the master. Using the journals that Madelaine wrote in every day so as not to forget her experiences and emotions she felt as a sexual submissive, Female Submission provides a through the glass darkly look at real-time female submission, written for women by a woman.

The journals from which this book is written are very detailed and vivid, and many of Madelaine's experiences were extremely wild, edgy, and on the most advanced level of play. Private fantasy enactments, exciting public scenes in nightclubs, and frolics both fun and fearful at exclusive dungeon parties spice up the every day activities Madelaine was assigned to do as the master's slave. As Madelaine explored her submissive nature more deeply, she was able to access the most hidden desires in her own mind and enter into the downward spiral necessary to bare her soul and debase herself for her master without degrading herself or losing her self-esteem.   As the book progresses, the scenes get wilder and emotions become deeper, making Madelaine into a submissive who would do anything for her cruel, handsome master and strive to make his base, and sometimes savage, desires her own.

Amazon lists this title as being available in hardcover and Kindle format.  I read it on my Kindle. 

- How kinky?
Extremely.  This is actually the kinkiest book I have read so far (and that's saying something). It is also one of the few books where I have read the synopsis (above), and then found the book to actually live up to its claims.  Usually the type of boast, "many of (the) experiences were extremely wild, edgy, and on the most advanced level of play" make me want to roll my eyes, because often a book that makes these kinds of claims goes about as far as watersports or, occasionally, needle play.  But let me assure you, dear reader ... this is Kinky. As. Fuck.  Hurrah!

- How sexy?
Very.  I found myself constantly turned on.The scenes are described in a way that makes them really relatable, and are constructed and strung together in ways that don't break your concentration too much as the author segues from scene to scene - important, I have found, to one's ongoing "enjoyment" of the narrative.  Too much hopping from one scene to the next just brings a reader up and down too many times to focus on stimulation.

- How informative/inspiring?
Again, it is non-fiction, but in a narrative manner, so "inspiring" rather than "informative".  And inspiring it is!  There was a lot of material in here that isn't often spoken of, in case less understanding folks misinterpret the true meaning.  Anal kicking, pussy punching, anal stretching and punching, and that scene with the rope, are just some of activities that spring to mind - eye-opening passages describing these and other activities really re-awakened my lust for new experiences!

- How engaging?
Well ... not as much as I'd hoped.  The very continuity of action that makes this such a rich mine of sexy imagination fodder, also makes it difficult to read too much in one sitting.  It's like a tub of very deep, dark, creamy, fudgy chocolate ice-cream ... you savour every bite, but eating it all in one go would ruin the decadent experience.  It's the law of diminishing returns, really.  I personally enjoyed it in smaller morsels, and all the more for it.

- How well executed?
Very well written.  Like many submissive memoirs I've read, I still do doubt it's authenticity.  Not it's authorship, which appears to be genuine, but the alleged day-to-day truth in description.  It is of course possible to have had these experiences, of course, but so rarely do we find so much heady ecstasy with one partner that it makes me wary of anyone who claims that such experiences happened to them in the space of just a few weeks, let alone months or years.  In addition, she makes reference to several apparently "well-known" events and personalities, none of whom I can find reference to in the bottomless annals of the interweb (to my disappointment). Nevertheless, well written, well constructed as a whole, and completely believable - true or otherwise.

- Overall reaction 
EDIT - I do warn that there is heavy and constant drug use. If that bothers you, do not read it.
I loved it.  It was a really enjoyable read from start to finish.  The characters aren't always likeable, just as in real life, and the situations aren't always comfortable, which reflects reality also.  There's no editing of the narrative just to fit into a fantastical magical kink-realm here, which certainly adds weight to the true-story idea.  There's too much "doing" and not enough "thinking" for my personal tastes - the same kind of writing style that turns me off Tolkien, too.  But that is entirely, 100% subjective, and many many readers will adore this book.  Set to become a re-read and re-re-read classic on my bookshelf.  I had a hard time not giving this five cocks ... so five it is!

The Pleasure's All Mine: Memoir of a Professional Submissive, by Joan Kelly

Description from Amazon.com:

When Joan Kelly took a weekend job as a professional submissive in a private dungeon, it seemed she'd finally found a perfect outlet for her pent-up desires. Suddenly, Joan was being paid to do things she'd only fantasized about. Having spent several years scouring the Internet unsuccessfully for a man who would dominate her in the bedroom without getting on her nerves outside of it, Joan had nearly lost hope of satisfying her sexually submissive urges. Now, using her professional name, "Marnie," she was being paid to do only what she felt like with kinky men who didn't even expect to have any real sex in their sessions. To Joan, it almost felt like being paid to practice the art of self-centeredness - except for the part where she had to kneel and address strangers as "Master." The Pleasure's All Mine offers the reader a rare, intimate, often amusing, sometimes disturbing look into the life of a professional submissive - one whose drive for self-acceptance and respect is as relentless as her sexual need for the services she provides. Readers will experience many humorous, bizarre, frightening, and utterly entertaining events through the perceptive and insightful eyes of this writer.

Amazon lists this title as being available in paperback and Kindle format. I read it on my Kindle.

- How kinky?
Not really.  If you're looking for extreme examples of kink, this ain't the place to find it. She covers the pretty usual stuff - spanking, foot worship, ice water - but nothing more shocking than that.

- How sexy?
Relatively. There are some very well-decribed, well-detailed scenes in here, but again, that's not where the book's real charms lie.

- How inspiring?
Possibly. As I said, she does go into some scenes in detail, and there are some ideas to be found - ie how she, as a sub, figures out how to top on command, and how to like it and be good at it. But that's not the focus of the story, and much of the detail is fairly useless for purely inspirational purposes.

- How engaging?
This. This is where the real beauty of Kelly's writing lies.  I found this memoir so engaging, I considered calling in sick just to stay in bed and keep reading! (I didn't, though. That would have been "very naughty, Alex".)  I genuinely needed to know: what happened next? What happened with this character?  With that relationship?  It was great.  Right up until the end.  The last page.  When you get there, you'll know what I mean. 

- How well executed?

Brilliant. The quality of the writing is top-notch. I didn't even catch a single spelling or grammatical error - all too common, these days. The characters are finely drawn, and the gorgeously descriptive writing is in perfect harmony with the well-balanced dialogue and well-described environments. There were some disappointments, such as: there seem to be some episodes missing (whatever happened to K? It is alluded to but never explained), and some scenes seemed slightly unneccessary (I'm looking at you, Scene With Todd Bridges). Overall, however, I had to remember it is a memoir, and whatever people choose to reveal or not reveal isn't my business. As a reader however - slightly off-putting.

- Negatives?

THE LAST PAGE.  I actually thought the end of the book hadn't been delivered to my Kindle properly. But no, that's just how the book ends.  Worst. Ending. Ever! I hate you, whoever's idea it was.  Hate you.

- Overall reaction
 Great book, really enjoyable and very funny.  Highly recommended to people who enjoy memoirs of the kinky kind.  Just don't scream in frustration when you reach the last page, like I did, and scare your pets :)

4 cocks!

No Ordinary Love Story: Sequel to The Diary of a Submissive, by Sophie Morgan

Description from Amazon.com:  

Sophie Morgan bares all in her controversial sequel to Diary of a Submissive, No Ordinary Love Story.

Sophie Morgan is a submissive. An ordinary, successful young woman who in private surrenders her body and mind to a dominant man. Some of these relationships have been loving, others casual, one just cruel. But what happens when she meets the dominant man of her dreams? When they move in together? When life, love and play collide?

In Adam, Sophie has found a man to respect and cherish her, as well as a lover who'll take her to the very limits of pain and pleasure. But how do you decide who's cooking dinner when later one of you will be whipping the other? Can you be curled up together watching TV one night and the next indulging in a serious punishment session?

In this follow-up to the number-one bestseller, The Diary of a Submissive, Sophie tells us what she did next, how she struggled to combine an ordinary relationship with her sexual needs. It's a controversial, honest and erotic story of trying to find her kinkily romantic happy-ever-after. No Ordinary Love Story is Sophie Morgan's real-life Fifty Shades of Grey.

Sophie Morgan is the author number-one best-selling The Diary of a Submissive, and is a journalist in her thirties.
 
Amazon lists this title as being available in paperback and Kindle format.  I read it on my Kindle. 

Here's my review of the first book:

Subtext: A Modern Day Tale of Female Submission, by Kate Marley

- How kinky?
Actually, surprisingly less so than I expected. The original book and the sequel have the same amount of kink as each other, really, but I suppose I was expecting Morgan to cover kinkier territory in this continuation of the story.  Possibly a case of overexpectation.  There is a lot of kink in there, don't get me wrong, but it was pretty much the same stuff as in the first book.  Plus a cage.

- How sexy? 
Very.  Like its predecessor, this book falls squarely into the "erotica" category, as opposed to "porn" ... but that is to be expected.  Real life just isn't porn.  Morgan's writing evokes a sexier reality, where everyone is living their everyday lives, going about their business, including the protagonists, but all the boring stuff is just edited out.  She shows us only the sexiest encounters, only the juiciest bits.  It's what all our lives would look like if there were remote controls for life.  It's sexy as hell.

- How inspiring?
Quite.  The original book and the sequel together tell the story of Morgan's journey of discovery.  Like any good journey tale, the challenges and obstacles get harder and greater as the story progresses.  Likewise, Morgan's experiences get more and more "hardcore" (for want of a better word).  It was here, in the sequel, that I came across stuff I hadn't come across in reality-erotica before - such as cages, pet play and even detailed aftercare descriptions.  Knowing about a practice and reading a full scenario are two different things.  Exploring cageplay, for instance, for the first time right along with Morgan is a pleasant rather than nervewracking experience, and could help novices along their own path of discovery.  In that sense, yes, inspiration abounds.

- How engaging?
Very.  Again, this is mainly due to the realism of the story.  The relationships depicted, not just the central one but also those of the satellite friends and family, are realistic enough to be thoroughly engaging, but never is so much pointless information given that it becomes boring to read. I found myself excited to find out what happened next, all the way through.  Of course we can see a happy ending a mile away, but that doesn't stop us wanting to be there when it happens.  And it didn't disappoint - I read the whole thing in two sittings.

- How well executed?
Mmm ... could have been better.  I mentioned there is just enough information given to render each scene and conversation wonderfully realistic.  In fact, there was a little less detail in this book than in the previous one, leaving me with a sense that I couldn't picture the characters in my head as the conversations rolled on.  We read about Adam's hair, but not what style it's in.  Charlotte's curls, but not their colour or length.  We know that Morgan and Adam are of a similar height, but what height is that?  When it comes to imagining scenes of this intensity, we really should be given logistical and aesthetic details like these - otherwise how do we know who to picture as we drift off into our own inspired reverie! These sorts of details aren't irrelevant - in fact they are taught as a fundamental part of writing fiction and biographical non-fiction.  The ability to conjure images of your characters in the minds of your readers through creative description is generally considered to be a fairly important skill.  Morgan, unfortunately, either doesn't have it, or has been the victim of ruthless editing.  Either way - I am disappoint.

- Negatives?
I sometimes feel that perhaps Kindle novels aren't as well copyedited as their paperback counterparts, or perhaps this one was rushed to publication in both formats.  Either way, there were one or two instances in which the wrong word was used for the situation - a simple mistake that many writers make, but needs to be picked up in editing.  It wasn't.  Considering Morgan is meant to be a journalist it just came off as lazy, and inconsiderate of readers who've paid money to share her story. 

- Overall reaction
Overall, I actually liked this book better than the first.  After reading Diary of a Submissive, I admit I was dying to find out what happened next.  What happened was both unexpected and fantastic, at least in the context of the storyline.  The male protagonist, much better in every way than his counterpart from the first book, just happens to be one version of my "ideal Dom" ... and I am certain that this is not a coincidence.  It is entirely possible, of course, that he has been idealised for his role in this story, as he really sounds too good to be true.  Cynicism aside, he made reading the story all the more engaging, right up until the not-so-surprising-really ending.  I don't know if I'd be impatient to read another sequel, if it were to be written - after all, stories about kink with kids in the house tend to be just slightly less erotic than otherwise.  But in case Morgan is considering a third in the series, I suppose I'd just have to read it, if only for the sake of this blog.  Ah, the things we have to do in the name of research!  :)
 

4 cocks!

Please also check out the first book:

Diary of a Submissive: A Modern True Tale of Sexual Awakening, by Sophie Morgan